turning a new page...

3 days until the Nickelback/Hinder/Saving Abel/Papa Roach concert! I'm super excited. Steve, unfortunately, can't get off work for some reason... so my friend Shawn is going with me. =) It'll be a good time. I'm sure of it.

I put in an application last week for a full time job. I really really REALLY want it. I'm going to call HR and possibly the lady that does the hiring for it. If I could get an interview.. I'm almost positive I'd be offered the job. =)

I think that a FT job would help me get organized with life. Help prioritize things.. ya know? Because organization is deffinitely what I lack in life. & I'm ready to change that.


... more later.

Can't take it anymore...

I know it's only been a few hours since my last blog, but... I just need to vent a bit.

I'm so fustrated with living here at my parents house. I help clean, take care of the animals & cook meals... I help with some of the bills.. I deffinitely help my fair share. Mom came home from work, and the kitchen was a mess, and of course it's my fault.. and completely my responisbilty. WTF! I dont think I can take it anymore. Not only did I loose the family that I was so acustomed to having.. I lost my personal space and the ability to do things my way. I can't help but feel angry and hurt. What pisses me off most is the only thing it's done to him.. is forced him to pay me some child support. He hasn't had to give up anything, not his freedom, or his fun. The only thing I didnt lose was Emma. I lost confidence in myself, I lost my home, personal possessions, money... the way of life that I had become so used to..

I just can't take it anymore...I need to find my own place... ASAP. I want to be away from my parents, I want a place to call my own... The search is on...

Vent over.

July already...

I seriously cannot believe that it's already July. Where the heck is the summer going? Time passes us by way too quickly. It completely boggles my mind that I've been out of highschool 4 years already... And to have been through all that I have... wow.

The last time I wrote about going to NC to see Casey & meet her husband and what not. Well that was seriously an awesome trip. Emma was such a good kid the entire time. We only stopped one time during the 7 1/2 hour drive.. there and back. I was shocked that she didn't whine and cry to stop more than that. It was such a nice and relaxing trip overall. I miss Casey being up here, but it's kinda cool to have somewhere to go if I want to. I'm planning on going back in August. =)

I'm super excited about alot of things comming up =). 15 days until the Nickelback/Hinder/Saving Abel/Papa Roach concert! I'm going with Steve, and it should be alot of fun! The last weekend of the month I'm probably going to the Poconos with Carl. We're both super excited about that trip. We're gonna do alot of outdoors stuff; hiking, whitewater rafting(maybe!?!), etc. It will be nice to get away for a few days with someone that I get along so well with. =) In August.. I'm looking at a week at the beach, maybe Myrtle? I guess we'll decide that in a few weeks!

I'm proud to say that down 13lbs. I've been participating in a Biggest Loser contest on allthingsparents.com. I love that group of ladies, and they are an awesome support group!! Only 32 lbs until I'm to my goal weight. I feel better about myself already, but I'm really looking forward to being healthier and happier =)

anyways, I dont have any more to ramble about for now... so until later!!

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