Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Happy Holidays =)
Sorry it's been a while since I posted last.
Halloween & Thanksgiving have come and gone, and Christmas is fast approaching. I'm super excited about Christmas. Emma is soo unbelievably spoiled lol. I'll deffinitely post Christmas pictures.
I just went and looked at house up for rent today. I loveeee it! I'm turning in the application/security deposit as soon as the office opens. I'm soo excited. I hope I get it, if I dont.. I'm gonna be heartbroken.
It's just a little 2 bedroom, 1 bath house. But it has a ltitle yard, and is perfect for us =). So keep your fingers crossed for us, please. K thanks =)
School is almost done for the semester. THANK GOD! I'm soo ready for a break. Next semester should be cake. lol.
Casey and I are going out on Thursday. =) Should be funnnn! I'm super excited to see her!
I'll post some pictures later today.. I'm gonna try and get some sleep so I can do some studying :)
See ya.
Halloween & Thanksgiving have come and gone, and Christmas is fast approaching. I'm super excited about Christmas. Emma is soo unbelievably spoiled lol. I'll deffinitely post Christmas pictures.
I just went and looked at house up for rent today. I loveeee it! I'm turning in the application/security deposit as soon as the office opens. I'm soo excited. I hope I get it, if I dont.. I'm gonna be heartbroken.
It's just a little 2 bedroom, 1 bath house. But it has a ltitle yard, and is perfect for us =). So keep your fingers crossed for us, please. K thanks =)
School is almost done for the semester. THANK GOD! I'm soo ready for a break. Next semester should be cake. lol.
Casey and I are going out on Thursday. =) Should be funnnn! I'm super excited to see her!
I'll post some pictures later today.. I'm gonna try and get some sleep so I can do some studying :)
See ya.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Hello Fall.
I guess posting in my blog every few months is better than nothing.. right? lol. I actually don't get online NEARLY as much as I used to.
With that being said... Summer is officially over, the cooler weather is moving in rapidly. & I love it. Along with the cooler weather comes the leaves changing, pumpkin patches, & the holidays.
Emma is such a big girl now. At 30 months old, and still a whopping 25 lbs, Emma is wearing 2T clothing and size 6 shoes. She is almost 100% potty trained. She wears big girl undies during the day (to include outings.. unless we're going to be gone for HOURS the I'll put a pull up on her.. just in case) and then she wears a pull up at night. 9 times out of 10.. the pull up stays dry. I'm so proud of her & she is quite proud of herself. We are starting to make weekly trips to the library in town, and as soon as I find somewhere that has gymnastics class for her age group on days that I have her, she'll be enrolled in that. She still goes to daycare one day a week (for now) and loves her teachers and her friends. Next fall, I will enroll Em in preschool 2 days a week =). She knows her ABC's and says them often. She can count to 20.. and LOVES to count stuff. Ie. we'll be drivin down the road, and she'll just start counting, so I asked her what she was doing, and she replied "i'm counting cars momma, look at that red one". =) I couldn't be more proud. We're still working on colors. It's pretty hit or miss if she gets them right. But all in all my little princess is growing up, and I love being here to see it all!
As for me..... wow, where to start.
I'm still working part time at the hospital. I can't WAIT to find a new job. I have several applications in at other hospitals and such. I need full time. I need that money.. and although i will be losing time with my daughter, as a single mom, I have no other choice. So keep your fingers crossed for me. :).
I finally got the money to file the custody stuff and the divorce. It only took me 10 months, but I have it. Actually I already went and paid my retainer fee for my attorney. She drew up the rough draft for custody.. and James says he wont sign. He wants Emma 50-50 alternating weeks. That just isn't doable. I havent stopped him from seeing her at all. He's never once asked to have her an extra day or to come see her, or pick up the phone and check on her. But all the sudden the arrangement we have isn't enough? He's mad bc I didnt do the divorce papers first. He just wants the divorce done so he can marry this girl he's seeing... so he can claim he's more 'stable' than I am. Makes me sick. So I guess we'll see where this goes, I'll give him one more chance to sign, before I continue with a custody complaint. I just want this crap over with.
Here are some pictures from the pumpkin patch =)
I am very happy with my life and the people in it :) <3
With that being said... Summer is officially over, the cooler weather is moving in rapidly. & I love it. Along with the cooler weather comes the leaves changing, pumpkin patches, & the holidays.
Emma is such a big girl now. At 30 months old, and still a whopping 25 lbs, Emma is wearing 2T clothing and size 6 shoes. She is almost 100% potty trained. She wears big girl undies during the day (to include outings.. unless we're going to be gone for HOURS the I'll put a pull up on her.. just in case) and then she wears a pull up at night. 9 times out of 10.. the pull up stays dry. I'm so proud of her & she is quite proud of herself. We are starting to make weekly trips to the library in town, and as soon as I find somewhere that has gymnastics class for her age group on days that I have her, she'll be enrolled in that. She still goes to daycare one day a week (for now) and loves her teachers and her friends. Next fall, I will enroll Em in preschool 2 days a week =). She knows her ABC's and says them often. She can count to 20.. and LOVES to count stuff. Ie. we'll be drivin down the road, and she'll just start counting, so I asked her what she was doing, and she replied "i'm counting cars momma, look at that red one". =) I couldn't be more proud. We're still working on colors. It's pretty hit or miss if she gets them right. But all in all my little princess is growing up, and I love being here to see it all!
As for me..... wow, where to start.
I'm still working part time at the hospital. I can't WAIT to find a new job. I have several applications in at other hospitals and such. I need full time. I need that money.. and although i will be losing time with my daughter, as a single mom, I have no other choice. So keep your fingers crossed for me. :).
I finally got the money to file the custody stuff and the divorce. It only took me 10 months, but I have it. Actually I already went and paid my retainer fee for my attorney. She drew up the rough draft for custody.. and James says he wont sign. He wants Emma 50-50 alternating weeks. That just isn't doable. I havent stopped him from seeing her at all. He's never once asked to have her an extra day or to come see her, or pick up the phone and check on her. But all the sudden the arrangement we have isn't enough? He's mad bc I didnt do the divorce papers first. He just wants the divorce done so he can marry this girl he's seeing... so he can claim he's more 'stable' than I am. Makes me sick. So I guess we'll see where this goes, I'll give him one more chance to sign, before I continue with a custody complaint. I just want this crap over with.
Here are some pictures from the pumpkin patch =)
I am very happy with my life and the people in it :) <3
Thursday, August 13, 2009
So it can get better =)
Wow, it's been a while since I wrote in here, almost a month. I appologize.
The concert was absolutely awesome. We had a wonderful time, and I'm totally going to more! Papa Roach was an energy like no other!! Hinder is deffinitely still my favorite band.. and Nickelback kicked ass! First concert was deffinitely a success!
What else is new... hmm... Emma is crazy as ever, but I love every single moment. Every day is a new adventure.. and I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Work... sucks. lol. I really need to find a new job... so I can get more hours. I'm lookin.
Ok.. I'm tired of writing.. more later.
The concert was absolutely awesome. We had a wonderful time, and I'm totally going to more! Papa Roach was an energy like no other!! Hinder is deffinitely still my favorite band.. and Nickelback kicked ass! First concert was deffinitely a success!
What else is new... hmm... Emma is crazy as ever, but I love every single moment. Every day is a new adventure.. and I wouldn't trade it for anything.
Work... sucks. lol. I really need to find a new job... so I can get more hours. I'm lookin.
Ok.. I'm tired of writing.. more later.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
turning a new page...
3 days until the Nickelback/Hinder/Saving Abel/Papa Roach concert! I'm super excited. Steve, unfortunately, can't get off work for some reason... so my friend Shawn is going with me. =) It'll be a good time. I'm sure of it.
I put in an application last week for a full time job. I really really REALLY want it. I'm going to call HR and possibly the lady that does the hiring for it. If I could get an interview.. I'm almost positive I'd be offered the job. =)
I think that a FT job would help me get organized with life. Help prioritize things.. ya know? Because organization is deffinitely what I lack in life. & I'm ready to change that.
... more later.
I put in an application last week for a full time job. I really really REALLY want it. I'm going to call HR and possibly the lady that does the hiring for it. If I could get an interview.. I'm almost positive I'd be offered the job. =)
I think that a FT job would help me get organized with life. Help prioritize things.. ya know? Because organization is deffinitely what I lack in life. & I'm ready to change that.
... more later.
Friday, July 3, 2009
Can't take it anymore...
I know it's only been a few hours since my last blog, but... I just need to vent a bit.
I'm so fustrated with living here at my parents house. I help clean, take care of the animals & cook meals... I help with some of the bills.. I deffinitely help my fair share. Mom came home from work, and the kitchen was a mess, and of course it's my fault.. and completely my responisbilty. WTF! I dont think I can take it anymore. Not only did I loose the family that I was so acustomed to having.. I lost my personal space and the ability to do things my way. I can't help but feel angry and hurt. What pisses me off most is the only thing it's done to him.. is forced him to pay me some child support. He hasn't had to give up anything, not his freedom, or his fun. The only thing I didnt lose was Emma. I lost confidence in myself, I lost my home, personal possessions, money... the way of life that I had become so used to..
I just can't take it anymore...I need to find my own place... ASAP. I want to be away from my parents, I want a place to call my own... The search is on...
Vent over.
I'm so fustrated with living here at my parents house. I help clean, take care of the animals & cook meals... I help with some of the bills.. I deffinitely help my fair share. Mom came home from work, and the kitchen was a mess, and of course it's my fault.. and completely my responisbilty. WTF! I dont think I can take it anymore. Not only did I loose the family that I was so acustomed to having.. I lost my personal space and the ability to do things my way. I can't help but feel angry and hurt. What pisses me off most is the only thing it's done to him.. is forced him to pay me some child support. He hasn't had to give up anything, not his freedom, or his fun. The only thing I didnt lose was Emma. I lost confidence in myself, I lost my home, personal possessions, money... the way of life that I had become so used to..
I just can't take it anymore...I need to find my own place... ASAP. I want to be away from my parents, I want a place to call my own... The search is on...
Vent over.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
July already...
I seriously cannot believe that it's already July. Where the heck is the summer going? Time passes us by way too quickly. It completely boggles my mind that I've been out of highschool 4 years already... And to have been through all that I have... wow.
The last time I wrote about going to NC to see Casey & meet her husband and what not. Well that was seriously an awesome trip. Emma was such a good kid the entire time. We only stopped one time during the 7 1/2 hour drive.. there and back. I was shocked that she didn't whine and cry to stop more than that. It was such a nice and relaxing trip overall. I miss Casey being up here, but it's kinda cool to have somewhere to go if I want to. I'm planning on going back in August. =)
I'm super excited about alot of things comming up =). 15 days until the Nickelback/Hinder/Saving Abel/Papa Roach concert! I'm going with Steve, and it should be alot of fun! The last weekend of the month I'm probably going to the Poconos with Carl. We're both super excited about that trip. We're gonna do alot of outdoors stuff; hiking, whitewater rafting(maybe!?!), etc. It will be nice to get away for a few days with someone that I get along so well with. =) In August.. I'm looking at a week at the beach, maybe Myrtle? I guess we'll decide that in a few weeks!
I'm proud to say that down 13lbs. I've been participating in a Biggest Loser contest on allthingsparents.com. I love that group of ladies, and they are an awesome support group!! Only 32 lbs until I'm to my goal weight. I feel better about myself already, but I'm really looking forward to being healthier and happier =)
anyways, I dont have any more to ramble about for now... so until later!!
♥♥♥
The last time I wrote about going to NC to see Casey & meet her husband and what not. Well that was seriously an awesome trip. Emma was such a good kid the entire time. We only stopped one time during the 7 1/2 hour drive.. there and back. I was shocked that she didn't whine and cry to stop more than that. It was such a nice and relaxing trip overall. I miss Casey being up here, but it's kinda cool to have somewhere to go if I want to. I'm planning on going back in August. =)
I'm super excited about alot of things comming up =). 15 days until the Nickelback/Hinder/Saving Abel/Papa Roach concert! I'm going with Steve, and it should be alot of fun! The last weekend of the month I'm probably going to the Poconos with Carl. We're both super excited about that trip. We're gonna do alot of outdoors stuff; hiking, whitewater rafting(maybe!?!), etc. It will be nice to get away for a few days with someone that I get along so well with. =) In August.. I'm looking at a week at the beach, maybe Myrtle? I guess we'll decide that in a few weeks!
I'm proud to say that down 13lbs. I've been participating in a Biggest Loser contest on allthingsparents.com. I love that group of ladies, and they are an awesome support group!! Only 32 lbs until I'm to my goal weight. I feel better about myself already, but I'm really looking forward to being healthier and happier =)
anyways, I dont have any more to ramble about for now... so until later!!
♥♥♥
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Learning as I go..
"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship.
It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."
Seriously, that quote describes how I feel now-a-days. I'm not sure that I'm ready to be in a relationship, I still have alot to get over as a result of the whole situation with James. It's hard to trust after all that I've been through. It really is. And although I may put on a pretty good front... I'm not okay. I struggle every day. I know that in the long run, I will be better off. I know that I am fully capable of moving on, and creating a wonderful life for my daughter and myself. It's just going to take time.
I'm not looking for a perfect person. I'm looking to find someone that is compatible. Someone that I am myself around, and someone that can be himself around me. I am a very open person, and say how I feel. And I expect that in return.
Other Updates:
With out a doubt, I am enjoying every single day. Like I said, it's going to be a rough road... but I'm ready to take each day at a time, and embrace every single moment.
Being a single mom is amazing. Hard, but amazing. I wouldn't want it anyyyy other way. Emma is truely my rock. And I know that no matter what happens, I will always have my baby girl. She is learning sooo quickly. And she mimmics absolutely EVERYTHING. She loves her days at daycare and each day with her is like an adventure.
Work & School for me are both going well. I'm waiting to be accepted in to the RN program. I can't wait to get in and get my career going. I know I have what it takes to be a nurse. I'm intelligent and compassionate. And I know I have the strength and ability to be a good nurse. I still love my job. I dont think I could ever truly say I didn't.
There are so many things comming up that I can't wait for. Emma and I are going to NC to spend the weekend with Casey and her hubby. In a little over a month, I'm going to the Nickleback/Hinder/Saving Abel/Papa Roach concert. I couldn't be more psyched!
I'm looking forward to getting my own place in the next month or so. I can't wait for a new begining. :):):)
♥♥♥♥♥
Monday, March 23, 2009
Another day of sunshine.
I am really really bad at updating this!! It's rediculous and I appologize.
So it's been eight weeks since I left James. I don't think I can accurately describe to you how much happier and stress-free I have been over the past weeks. I no longer listen to him constantly putting me down, or agonize over the thought of going home, or wonder who or what he is doing the second I walk out the door. I am truly better off. I have spent the last eight weeks getting myself organized, figuring out my money situation, spending much needed time with my friends, and of course making sure my baby girl gets my undivided attention.
Emma sees her father two days a week for a few hours each time and then every other weekend. It seems to be working out well for us. Although, I completely dresd her weekends with him.. because I miss her soo much while she's gone.
Emma is talking very well now-a-days. She is constantly yelling and telling dads dog... "MYA SHUT UP!" "MYA GO OUTSIDE!".. it's WAYY too funny! She also walks around saying "why thank you hunny" and is now counting to five on her own. Above five and I still have to help her. She is also learning to ride her tricycle which is very very cute. She's almost got the hang of it!
As for me - I can't wait until this May. This past semester has by far been the longest semester of my life. Only 5-6 weeks to go and I will gladly welcome summer break <3!
I took Emma for Spring/2 year pictures today.. and they turned out great!! Here are some of them!
I will be updating tomorrow probably with more pictures. :)
<3
So it's been eight weeks since I left James. I don't think I can accurately describe to you how much happier and stress-free I have been over the past weeks. I no longer listen to him constantly putting me down, or agonize over the thought of going home, or wonder who or what he is doing the second I walk out the door. I am truly better off. I have spent the last eight weeks getting myself organized, figuring out my money situation, spending much needed time with my friends, and of course making sure my baby girl gets my undivided attention.
Emma sees her father two days a week for a few hours each time and then every other weekend. It seems to be working out well for us. Although, I completely dresd her weekends with him.. because I miss her soo much while she's gone.
Emma is talking very well now-a-days. She is constantly yelling and telling dads dog... "MYA SHUT UP!" "MYA GO OUTSIDE!".. it's WAYY too funny! She also walks around saying "why thank you hunny" and is now counting to five on her own. Above five and I still have to help her. She is also learning to ride her tricycle which is very very cute. She's almost got the hang of it!
As for me - I can't wait until this May. This past semester has by far been the longest semester of my life. Only 5-6 weeks to go and I will gladly welcome summer break <3!
I took Emma for Spring/2 year pictures today.. and they turned out great!! Here are some of them!
I will be updating tomorrow probably with more pictures. :)
<3
Friday, February 20, 2009
Just another day..
Laundry is almost finnished, mine and Emma's rooms are clean... and left overs will be for dinner. I was going to go to the mall this evening.. but I really dont feel like driving clear to Hagerstown. (because 25 minutes is really that far.. right?)
School is going well. Next week I have exams in both of my traditional classes (A&P 2 and Micro!!). Lets just hope for the best. LoL
Emma is adjusting to her new bedroom here at moms. She's sleeping in her bed... and is no longer waking through the night. ((I think she was having night terrors last week!)). I think we're going to start working on taking the pacifier from her... as long as her father will help enforce it.
As for me... I'm slowly figuring out what its going to take for me to be happy. But for now... I'm statisfied with how things are.. and I know life will only get better from here.
So, I posted these lyrics on myspace at some point in the last couple weeks..
I think I'll share them here as well.
Take a bow - Rhianna
Oh, how about a round of applause
Yeah, standing' ovation
Oh oh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah
You look so dumb right now
Standing' outside my house
Trying' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
Oh...
Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talking' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (oh)
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
Oh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out
How about a round of applause
A standing' ovation
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now...
until next time....
School is going well. Next week I have exams in both of my traditional classes (A&P 2 and Micro!!). Lets just hope for the best. LoL
Emma is adjusting to her new bedroom here at moms. She's sleeping in her bed... and is no longer waking through the night. ((I think she was having night terrors last week!)). I think we're going to start working on taking the pacifier from her... as long as her father will help enforce it.
As for me... I'm slowly figuring out what its going to take for me to be happy. But for now... I'm statisfied with how things are.. and I know life will only get better from here.
So, I posted these lyrics on myspace at some point in the last couple weeks..
I think I'll share them here as well.
Take a bow - Rhianna
Oh, how about a round of applause
Yeah, standing' ovation
Oh oh yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah
You look so dumb right now
Standing' outside my house
Trying' to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
Oh...
Grab your clothes and get gone (get gone)
You better hurry up before the sprinklers come on
Talking' about, girl, I love you, you're the one
This just looks like a re-run
Please, what else is on (oh)
And don't tell me you're sorry 'cause you're not
Baby when I know you're only sorry you got caught
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
Oh, and the award for the best liar goes to you
For making me believe that you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech out
How about a round of applause
A standing' ovation
But you put on quite a show
Really had me going
Now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining'
But it's over now (but it's over now)
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now...
until next time....
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
Lets try this again...
So I completely forgot about this. Oops! I'm going to try my best to atleast post here once a week. I'd love to get to a point where I'm posting on here daily, but I guess time will tell. ha ha.
There have been alot of changes lately. James and I have separated, and will be going our separate ways. He cheated on me.. and I simply cannot forgive that. For the time being, Emma and I are staying with my parents, until I have enough stashed away to get us back on our feet. Living under their roof is deffinitely cramping my style. lmao. Atleast they are willing to help us out.
I am in my last semester of classes before I start clinicals. So with any hope, I'll be an RN in about 2 1/2 years. I am still working at the local hospital, however, I am now in ICU and OB... as well as my night shifts in the ER. I wouldn't trade my job for anything right now. I love the people I work with, and I look forward to my nights/evenings there.
As for Emma.. she's been going to day care one day a week for about 2 months now. She seems to be adjusting well. I'm very thankful for that. She's learning new words, and forming more complex sentences. She loves to sing and dance.. and it's sooo cute to watch! I can't wait for the warmer weather so we can play outside!!!!!
In the next few months, Emma and I will both be celebrating birthdays, and getting a new place to call home. Stay tuned, I'll keep you updated as these changes take place.
-Love-
There have been alot of changes lately. James and I have separated, and will be going our separate ways. He cheated on me.. and I simply cannot forgive that. For the time being, Emma and I are staying with my parents, until I have enough stashed away to get us back on our feet. Living under their roof is deffinitely cramping my style. lmao. Atleast they are willing to help us out.
I am in my last semester of classes before I start clinicals. So with any hope, I'll be an RN in about 2 1/2 years. I am still working at the local hospital, however, I am now in ICU and OB... as well as my night shifts in the ER. I wouldn't trade my job for anything right now. I love the people I work with, and I look forward to my nights/evenings there.
As for Emma.. she's been going to day care one day a week for about 2 months now. She seems to be adjusting well. I'm very thankful for that. She's learning new words, and forming more complex sentences. She loves to sing and dance.. and it's sooo cute to watch! I can't wait for the warmer weather so we can play outside!!!!!
In the next few months, Emma and I will both be celebrating birthdays, and getting a new place to call home. Stay tuned, I'll keep you updated as these changes take place.
-Love-
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